A Song

I think camp rock inspired me to write a song.  So thats what I did with my afternoon yesterday.  I figured I would just take a stab at it.  I mean after Fighting For the Right of Your Love and Interdigitizing I thought I might be able to write a song of some sort.  I am trying to figure out how to use garage band so I can put some tunes behind the lyrics! 

I am working at DSM starting tomorrow!  Nothing to glamorus...my first project will be helping to clean out the dungeon, which is like their basement that has not been cleaned/organized in a good while.

For some reason I have been dying to take an adult hip hop class for the past few weeks and I can not find a class in the D-town area that offers one!  If they do the registration fee alone makes me say no.  So I decided to do some investigating in the Boston area and I found a place thats only $40 a month for 3 classes!  Not to bad eh?  My urge for some hip hop might have to wait til September!

WE ROCK!

So this post will NOT be about my job search saga!  On another note I want to give you a chance to go inside my wacky brain and take a glimpse at what has been turning inside of it:

First the most anticipated Disney Channel movie since HSM 1 and 2 premiered on Friday- CAMP ROCK!  And I just want to say it ROCKED!  I totally think it stands up there with HSM 1!  Not HSM 2 because I think I laughed more at HSM 2 than with it if you know what I mean!  (I mean just thinking about Zac Efron frolicking in the grass while trying to be hard core makes me want to chuckle still!)  Anyways needless to say I enjoyed all 2.5 hours of the jo bro's and demi rockin out.  I mean I was even inspired by the message!  

So more than ever I have noticed that I do not think I am normal.  I think every person in my family thinks I am a tad crazy for getting so much enjoyment from the disney channel at my age and have commented on my love for the D-Channel. Some express their opinions a little more harshly than others!  So do I think I need to grow up and graduate myself from the D-Channel?  NO!  You know why?  Because as I channel surf I get so frustrated with what kind of entertainment is on TV!  I mean I can't think of one show that is made for my "age group" that does that involve sex, drugs, lust, adultery etc and I am so so sick of it!  I mean I can't even listen to the radio without having to change the channel every other song (I mean forgive me for not wanting "I kissed a girl and I liked it" in my head)  I know that this is the kind of pop culture we are living in and I can't shut down the media just because I don't want to fill my mind with that stuff, but I just want to know what is the other option?  Can't we have the option of culturally relevant entertainment that is not filled with all this junk?  People start to question why 12 year old girls are taking naked pictures of themselves and sending them to boys (true story I heard on the radio!).  Well I say what do you expect with what kind of entertainment that is out there and what they are probably watching behind their parents back.  I firmly believe that what you expose yourself to is going to come out of you.  It is going to affect you.  You are not above it, no matter what your age, and it will take a toll on you in some form or fashion.    

I love the entertainment industry.  I mean I am working my but off to get into it!  But I think I have a love hate relationship with the media.  I was joking about how if someone would put me in charge of the media how I would change it and my cousin said then the world would be a bunch of Disney Channels!  Now I don't think that is totally true but I do want to go into this industry to give people a choice in what kind of entertainment they want to choose.  There are not many alternatives for people to pick that does not involve the things that are filled in other shows that still carry the same form of cultural relevance.  I don't think we need entertainment that is rainbows and butterfly's all the time because life is not like that.  But I KNOW there is a way to create entertainment that still speaks to the heart and touches on important issues without the "junk."  So for the time being I will not think that I am weird for being very entertained by the Disney Channel.  It is my alternative and until I find more it will be my first choice when I turn on the TV!  

I do not mean to offend anyone and their choice of entertainment.  I am passionate about this and it is so a part of me because of my own experience with the kind of media I don't want to be a part of anymore.  And I don't do media perfectly the way I want to all the time.  I mess up a lot and I still give in to things I say I don't want to be a part of.  I am still figuring it out and mistakes are a part of the process for me.  I am not perfect and I am still learning a lot about myself!  The Lord took me and is still taking me on a journey and I know that there is a purpose bigger than I am for me in the theatre/entertainment industry.  I am just rooting for the underdog in pop culture...the other option!!  I will either find it or create it!

Back to square one? Maybe?!

Well I could possible be back at square one and a half...i'm not sure.  I had my interview with WFT yesterday and it went great!  I enjoyed talking to them a lot and I just stinkin love this theatre and what they stand for!  But I found out during the interview that the box office manager position is a part time $10 an hour no benefits kinda position.  I was bummed to say the least but then again he did describe this job as a stepping stone kind of job and that might be what I need to do if it comes down to it.  Obviously I would have to work another job but I already found  2 part time arts jobs to apply for so this could be positive or it could be back to square one.  It just depends on which way my brain decides to look at the situation.  I get an update on if I am still in the running for the job after the 4th so I'll keep you posted.  I've been putting off applying for more jobs this week because I was just so excited about this interview and hoping that this would be THE job...so its back to applying for jobs like crazy in hopes of finding a full time job in the theatre with a salary and benefits!  I already found 5 jobs in the arts (one of them in the theatre! yay!) to apply for this weekend.  The day I get a job will be one of the sweetest days ever after this job search process!

As I said before I really think I just need to be an actress.  I am just thinking that if I auditioned for as many jobs I have applied for I would have landed a gig by now.  There just has to be a better success rate for them.  If someone would have told me it was going to be this hard to break into the theatre business I think I would have just stuck to acting!  Ha!  The guy at wheelock did say that this is a position usually actors take...maybe i should take the job and then just act with my spare time.  

Stay tuned to see what happens in my  pre Boston adventures of: Do I Have What it Takes to get to Boston?

Fun in the SUN!

So vaca in Destin with the fam was wonderful! I got to spend 3 days by the beach and not be attached to a computer looking for jobs. It was so refreshing to just be by the ocean and just be...I think it should be a law that everyone has to go to the beach once a year at least! I have not been to the beach in over 10 yeas and that is just way to long. One major highlight on the trip- I went para sailing with my mom and aunt! It was a very spontaneous thing and such a thrill. I loved every second of the 10 minutes we were soaring 400 ft above the ocean!

Well that is all I got for now! I have an interview on Wed so please pray for me if you think of me! I am so so excited about this job and I just pray that everything will workout in my favor!

Yes I CAN!

I feel like blogging my life right now.

I feel like my full time job is applying for jobs...ironic?! I think so!

If I am going to move to Boston I might start thinking about applying for jobs related to dance, opera etc but every time I try to apply for one I stop...because I want to work for the theatre...I'm stubborn.

I started applying for jobs in NYC because sometimes I get mad at Boston because they don't have a million and one jobs for the theatre unlike New York.  The only company who has replied to me this week is The League of Resident Theatre.  All they said was we have received your resume.  Thank You!  Thank you LORT for making me feel like I am not sending my resume into thin air.  It means a lot!

I want to publicly wish Xanadu good luck at the Tony's.  Even though I have not seen this show I have always believed in it.  Cubby Burnstein (check out You Tube!) you inspire me and I am with you... YES IT CAN!  If it wins I would like every person who has made fun of me for liking this show to sing a Xanadu song for me!  A you tube video will be very appropriate!  Well if Xanadu can well then I can too!  I will find a job in the theatre....Xanadu are you hiring?

I think I am just going to pick acting back up.  Maybe getting into the theatre business is easier that way?  Who knows?